By The River

Thursday, July 14, 2011

This is one of my secret places. I have them hidden all across the city, places I can hide to ride out whatever is happening in the real world. It isn't so much that these places are quiet, or that I can generally be alone in them, it's the feeling of safety they give me. 

I used to have big problems with anxiety, for a while I was frequently too scared to leave the house, and when I did I would exert so much energy trying to prevent myself from panicking I would be exhausted by the end of it. That was when I started making safe places. Places that didn't make me panic, places that I could hide out to weather whatever horrible thought was going through my head. 

It has been over six months since I last had a full blown panic attack but I still plan my routes through town around my safe places. It makes me feel better to know if things ever get bad again, if I ever feel that horrible sensation of being out of control again I can go to one of these places and centre myself, before I have to face the terror of the 'real' world. 
T-shirt: Topshop, Dress worn as skirt; Swapped, Belt & Shoes: Primark

I'm totally in love with these shoes, they were in my last post as well, but they are just so comfortable, and I love the detail on them. I hate buying new shoes, finding something comfortable is always so hard. I bought the most beautiful pair of crimson moccasins from Peacocks last week but they are just too painful to wear :( I'm so gutted. Maybe I will go try and swap them for a different pair... 

I hope you are all having a wonderful week. I'm hoping to get out and do some sunbathing later today. Scotland finally seems to have realised that it is Summer. 

On an unrelated note, I am so unbelievably excited about the final Harry Potter film coming out tonight! I've got friends coming to stay and we are going to go to a late showing on Saturday night and I honestly cannot wait. I might have a whole post dedicated to my excitement tomorrow. Squeee! 

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  1. You have a very pretty hiding place. It kinda reminds me of the secret garden! Your skirt is darling :)


  2. Sorry to hear about your anxiety :( I am always here if you want to chat! I love the safe place though, I can't imagine being anything but happy there!7

    Maria xxx

  3. Funny Little Frog14 July 2011 at 19:46

    Can see why that would be your safe place, it's beautiful!! ooo I can't wait for Harry Potter either, not sure when I'll be seeing it though, busy this weekend :-( hope you have a good night xxx

  4. i love the safe place.. i had one like it  in highschool. and pretty purple skirt!

    <3 steffy

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  5. looks like a very peaceful place.  i love your hair, by the way!


  6. You have incredible hair, I love it!


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  8. Your hair is gorgeous. And your style is too great to stay in the house. I used to have anxiety in college. It went away since though. I felt like everyone was looking at me.



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